To A Friend, Loved and Lost
Today I stopped trying to be 'someone' for somebody who never thought of me as anyone appreciated and important to them.
Inside I know the space I had for them is now crushed and broken.
Let the facts be out in the open and the truth be spoken.
In time it will be for the best.
Although I feel an emptiness.
Knowing what I considered worthwhile.
Proved shallow and unreal.
I've learned sometimes emotions seem clearer than perception.
And eventually can lead to a heartbreaking revelation that someone cherished proves that their friendship was in fact deception.
I cry tears of realization that once again I believed the lies that were in disguise and covered up.
Honesty was masked with coy flattery. Why was I so darn naive?
I can and will move on.
But I won't forget I was forgot and actually believed a lie. Not a lie out of the mouth.
But of the heart.
That piece of friendship is now many torn apart.
I mustn't be sorry for the encouragement and love I shared.
Because I know what I offered was itself a dare. A dare to let someone be a part of me.
Who didn't find a reason to care.
Moments like these are rare.
Moments that I feel what I felt to be 'nothing' now and bare.
Thanks for the lesson learned.
And always remembered.
You were a 'lucky' someone who successfully got a part of the best of me.
Now I'll throw away the scattered and useless pieces and leave you be.
Let’s Fix the Broken Hearts
I know
That I made your days unbearable
I know that
I made your nights impossible
Because you broke my heart
Because I was hurt.
The total disregard of my feelings
The obvious humiliation, the stings
Of your sarcastic looks
Your surprising hooks
And your mental jabs and uppercuts
You unjustly classified me among the worst of the nuts.
Vengeance will not solve our problems
However, when I see you weep
Those tears wash away the blames
That you bestowed on me. I am not the sheep
Who can unnecessarily make you unhappy
I can truthfully tell you that you are your own enemy.
I know
That I turned your days upside down
Now you know
How it feels to be put seriously down
Let’s stop the hurts
Let’s fix the broken hearts.
As I Lay Here
As I lay here in bed, I think of you.
I think of how everyone else’s
relationships are falling apart at the
seams and here we are.
We’re still going strong.
You haven’t any clue what you mean to me.
Even though you think
you do, you will never know
quite the way my heart beats
when I see you or the way my
stomach gets butterflies
when you look into my eyes.
I love you so much baby and I’m glad
that it’s just you and I. You’re
the only one who has ever
meant this much to me.
You’re the only one that can.
I want us to be forever, and I know we
will make it through the good and
the bad, for I’ll love you
until the day I die.
Friendship Thats Never Ends
I remember my first day of k-5,
When I sat there and cried for my mom,
You came over and sat next to me,
And we’ve been best friends ever since.
I’m the luckiest girl alive to have a friend like you.
You’re one of the nicest people I know.
Friends like you are one in a billion.
I can’t believe God blessed me with a friend like you.
We lost contact for a few years,
But that didn’t stop our friendship.
I remember that October day
When you showed up in my driveway.
I couldn’t believe it was you.
I was so happy to see you,
And you were happy to see me.
That was one of the best days of my life.
I’ve had lots of friends over the years.
They came and went, but you never left.
You’re still here, even after eleven years.
All those other “friends” taught me the meaning of a true friend.
They never really cared what went on in my life.
They just turned and walked away when things didn’t go their way.
Anybody who doesn’t want to be your friend,
Just hasn’t taken the time to get to know you.
Because if they had, they would want to be
Your friend forever and ever, until the end of time.
I hope you know how much you mean to me.
You’re the sister that God forgot to give me.
You understand me like nobody else,
And you’re the one person who I know will
Always be there to turn my tears into a smile.
I will always be there to turn your tears into a smile.
When you need a shoulder to cry on,
A hug to make you feel better,
Or someone to listen to your problems,
All you have to do is call, because I know you’d do the same for me.
If there’s ever a time when you feel like no one cares,
Just remember I’m the one person who will always care.
Nothing is ever going to stop us from being friends,
Because I’m not going to let that happen.
The Loss Of A Child's Father
Your loss came so unexpectedly. I thought many more years we would have to share.
But God had another plan and at times the loss and grief are things I just can't bear.
We created the most wonderful son. And he looks and acts just like you.
I never thought that I'd have to raise him and care for him
not always being reassured by you of the right things to do.
He asks about you all the time and says "Mommy, I miss daddy when can I see him again."
I tell him that you are in heaven and when you reunite you can catch up on all the things that have been.
Hours, days, months and years pass by but the love of a father and a son never run dry.
I miss you as one of my best friends but I can't change anything that has happened or what has been.
Our son is the legacy that you leave for all to see.
And I pray that God has wrapped his loving arms around you allowing you the chance to be all that you can be.
I love you and I miss you.
But God had another plan and at times the loss and grief are things I just can't bear.
We created the most wonderful son. And he looks and acts just like you.
I never thought that I'd have to raise him and care for him
not always being reassured by you of the right things to do.
He asks about you all the time and says "Mommy, I miss daddy when can I see him again."
I tell him that you are in heaven and when you reunite you can catch up on all the things that have been.
Hours, days, months and years pass by but the love of a father and a son never run dry.
I miss you as one of my best friends but I can't change anything that has happened or what has been.
Our son is the legacy that you leave for all to see.
And I pray that God has wrapped his loving arms around you allowing you the chance to be all that you can be.
I love you and I miss you.
Friendship Thats Never Ends
Waves lap against our boat
as we wait in the cold
wrap our selves in our coat
Waiting for the order to be told
Watching all our mates watch us
Each thinking the same as the other
Are we going to fight tonight
Stand side by side like brothers
Orders been given and off we go
Terrifying noises all around
Bombs exploding in our sight
Machine guns are the other sound
Bullets are whizzing past us now
Dead bodies are scattered free
People running for their life
Screaming somebody help me
Trying to make sense of all this
Staying alive and alert through the night
Wanting to go home to our family
Keeping quiet and out of sight
The enemy is near
the footsteps are loud
But we will not give in
we stand together proud
Family in unit
brothers in blood
Fighting our corner
Covered in mud
No one sees the fear in our eyes
Waiting to see if its our time to die
Not wanting to die this way
But no other choice is what they say
So here I lay in eternal sleep
Replaying my life as a soldier
Would I change a single thing
would I still be here if war didn’t begin
as we wait in the cold
wrap our selves in our coat
Waiting for the order to be told
Watching all our mates watch us
Each thinking the same as the other
Are we going to fight tonight
Stand side by side like brothers
Orders been given and off we go
Terrifying noises all around
Bombs exploding in our sight
Machine guns are the other sound
Bullets are whizzing past us now
Dead bodies are scattered free
People running for their life
Screaming somebody help me
Trying to make sense of all this
Staying alive and alert through the night
Wanting to go home to our family
Keeping quiet and out of sight
The enemy is near
the footsteps are loud
But we will not give in
we stand together proud
Family in unit
brothers in blood
Fighting our corner
Covered in mud
No one sees the fear in our eyes
Waiting to see if its our time to die
Not wanting to die this way
But no other choice is what they say
So here I lay in eternal sleep
Replaying my life as a soldier
Would I change a single thing
would I still be here if war didn’t begin
A Soldier Pray
Waves lap against our boat
as we wait in the cold
wrap our selves in our coat
Waiting for the order to be told
Watching all our mates watch us
Each thinking the same as the other
Are we going to fight tonight
Stand side by side like brothers
Orders been given and off we go
Terrifying noises all around
Bombs exploding in our sight
Machine guns are the other sound
Bullets are whizzing past us now
Dead bodies are scattered free
People running for their life
Screaming somebody help me
Trying to make sense of all this
Staying alive and alert through the night
Wanting to go home to our family
Keeping quiet and out of sight
The enemy is near
the footsteps are loud
But we will not give in
we stand together proud
Family in unit
brothers in blood
Fighting our corner
Covered in mud
No one sees the fear in our eyes
Waiting to see if its our time to die
Not wanting to die this way
But no other choice is what they say
So here I lay in eternal sleep
Replaying my life as a soldier
Would I change a single thing
would I still be here if war didn’t begin
A heart is torn open,
A love is broken,
A life is empty,
With few words spoken.
The words are spoken,
Are what I appear?
Like the loss of your love,
Is the blank I fear?
Knowing you hate me,
Is a terrible fate?
I thought the there was hope,
But it was too late.
What is spoken is spoken,
And what is done is done,
I spoke without thinking,
And know you are gone.
I hope one day that I will
Earn your heart back
Because I still truly love you
And that us a fact.
as we wait in the cold
wrap our selves in our coat
Waiting for the order to be told
Watching all our mates watch us
Each thinking the same as the other
Are we going to fight tonight
Stand side by side like brothers
Orders been given and off we go
Terrifying noises all around
Bombs exploding in our sight
Machine guns are the other sound
Bullets are whizzing past us now
Dead bodies are scattered free
People running for their life
Screaming somebody help me
Trying to make sense of all this
Staying alive and alert through the night
Wanting to go home to our family
Keeping quiet and out of sight
The enemy is near
the footsteps are loud
But we will not give in
we stand together proud
Family in unit
brothers in blood
Fighting our corner
Covered in mud
No one sees the fear in our eyes
Waiting to see if its our time to die
Not wanting to die this way
But no other choice is what they say
So here I lay in eternal sleep
Replaying my life as a soldier
Would I change a single thing
would I still be here if war didn’t begin
Im Sorry
A heart is torn open,
A love is broken,
A life is empty,
With few words spoken.
The words are spoken,
Are what I appear?
Like the loss of your love,
Is the blank I fear?
Knowing you hate me,
Is a terrible fate?
I thought the there was hope,
But it was too late.
What is spoken is spoken,
And what is done is done,
I spoke without thinking,
And know you are gone.
I hope one day that I will
Earn your heart back
Because I still truly love you
And that us a fact.
